They say that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. But when you don’t know what else there is to do, you’re kind of stuck. So I’m going to try this daily writing thing again, but with a bit more structure and discipline built in to reinforce the habit.
I am no longer willing to compromise my mental health to make a living. That’s where I am right now. I need to make a living, but I refuse to do so in ways and/or places that are detrimental to my well being.
I’m on anti-depressants and beta-blockers, so I presume I have anxiety and depression. But no-one who is supposed to know these things has come out and stated as much. So sometimes I feel like I’m just being lazy, and there’s nothing wrong with me that a bit of motivation won’t fix. I know this isn’t the case, but it doesn’t stop my brain entertaining the thought.
I can fight off the squirrels, but it’s way easier if I’m not worrying about paying the bills as well. What’s the first step? Beyond getting into the writing habit again, I have no idea, I’ll let you know when I figure it out.